Saturday, May 3, 2008

An Epiphany

Well, I think I've figured it out. It's kind of embarrassing and not something that I should probably admit to...but I think I know how to get my groove back, if you will. Apparently, I just have to be more self-centered. Huh.

I spent today basically doing whatever I wanted. John was out of town all day and I still had William with me but like, I really had no one to worry about and nothing to do except amuse myself however I wanted. I went out to lunch. I drank a chai in the park while reading a book. I walked around the mall aimlessly with no time constraint. I bought a new necklace and a new shirt. And just like that...all kind of ideas and motivation and excitement and pretty things filled me up.

It sounds so bad, that I need to be more self-absorbed and like need to think I'm really cool in order to have any sort of motivation or inspiration. But then I thought, all art is kind of that way isn't it? Artists are notorious for being self-consumed, etc. right? Not that I'm claiming to be an artist by any account. It just makes me feel better. Ha.

So anyway. that's that. And as shallow as it may be it still makes me really stoked.


EJ said...

Amen sister, there is nothing like a little me time to get back in the swing of things. I'm really enjoying your posts a day, they are very inspiring.

Kaja said...

it may not be that you are being more self-absorbed, sometimes you just have to get out of the house and do something different once in a while :) at least that's how i feel. i'm loving your blogs, also!