Friday, November 30, 2007

We Are Broken

It's an interesting thing to have your heart broken. For the world you thought you knew come crashing down with one sentence. That's all it takes -- just a few words in a stupid text message -- to destroy everything.

It's an interesting thing to find out something so huge and so devastating that you can't even comprehend that it's real. It seems like a nightmare in the back of your mind until you think about it again and realize that it's not a nightmare -- it's really happening.

It's an interesting thing to hurt so badly for another person that you can't possibly hold yourself in one piece. To feel such despair and helplessness that you will surely split in two.

It's an interesting thing to have your trust shattered in one of the few people you should be able to trust the most.

Friday, November 16, 2007

If Only Time Flew Like a Dove...

1)The above baby. And the little name stool that he received as a gift. It's from Just look how excited Will is about it!

2) A brilliant idea invented by the lovely Sheena and shared with me by Kelly: A spoonful of peanut butter and chocolate chips -- better than a Reese's PB Cup! And always available (not necessarily a good thing. Especially when one has a significant number of pounds to lose.)

3) Pushing Daisies - This show is on Wednesday nights on ABC and it rocks my world. After Gilmore Girls ended the TV world seemed a bleak and dismal place. Luckily Pushing Daisies showed up to save the day. If you haven't seen it yet you're really missing out. If you need further convincing, the pie diner owned by the main character is called The Pie Hole. Hello? Awesome.

4) Finding long-sleeve shirts for under $3 at Target.

5) "Island" by The Starting Line. Go listen to it now. We saw them open for Paramore (another of my favorite things) last weekend. The rest of their music is just whatever but "Island" is excellent.

Wednesday, November 14, 2007

Oh Goody.

Alright, so you realize that you'll have to put up with a gratuitous number of baby photos now, don't you?

William had his 1 month check-up yesterday and has gained exactly 2 pounds (9lb 14oz) and grown an inch (22in). He's getting so big already! What the heck?

Okay, Suzy tagged me, so that's why we're here (well, and cause I had to show off the above photo)...

A. Each player lists 6 facts/habits about themselves.
B. At the end of the post, the player then tags 6 people and posts their names, then goes to their blogs and leaves them a comment, letting them know that they have been tagged and asking them to read your blog, for these rules.

1) Giving birth has made me realize that I can do anything. Being in pain and working that hard for that long made any other possible task seem like a piece of cake! I feel so much more confident in myself now. It's amazing. I've never felt like this about myself before.

2) The holidays haven't even happened yet but I'm already starting to feel that let-down/post-holiday depression. Thanksgiving is next week! And Christmas will be here and gone so fast. The first couple weeks of January are always a bummer. Everything is just going too fast for me. Can't the holiday season last a couple more months please?

3) We've already discussed this at length here, but can I just express one more time how much I love anything with pumpkin in it? I mean really now. It's such a delicious squash (is it a squash? or what?). Kelly made a pumpkin soup while we were staying at her house and it was so so good. And I had a pumpkin scone from Starbucks today for "lunch". Give me more pumpkin stuff please.

4) Speaking of pumpkin scones, that's really the last thing I need to be eating right now. I have a large number of pounds to lose post-baby. The "oh, I'll lose the weight after I have the baby" mentality is just plain stupidity. It would have been much easier to have been anal about everything I ate WHILE pregnant so as to not gain the weight in the first place. But somehow the fact that I KNEW that even while doing the opposite didn't have much of an effect.

5) The loveliest golden glow is coming through the living room windows right now. I wish a photo could acurately capture the moment. Some things just have to be lived though.

6) I procrastinated (what?! me!? procrastinate?! that's un-heard of!) the making of two birthday presents and didn't get them done before William was born. And now it's taking me a million years to get them done cause I'm only able to work on them for 15 minutes at a time. So now one of them is going to be late. Dag yo!

Good thing I only had to think of six things -- I was struggling to think of that many AND William just woke up so it's time to go. Goodness I have the cutest baby in the world. If you need proof, please go back to the beginning of this post. See? Told ya.

I tag Christen, Alissa, Ruth, Lisa, Trevor and Adelyn!

Sunday, November 11, 2007

Happiness Is...

A cloudy, cold, rainy day.
Stew on the stove.
Rolls in the oven.
A sleeping baby.
A clean house.
A good book.
Cuddling with your best friend.

Monday, November 5, 2007

What I've Been Doing

Uh, okay so last time I checked we were still in early October and now it's suddenly November 5. What the? Somehow having a baby, having a nearly constant stream of visitors and then leaving town made the entire month disappear. Yikes. I'm totally weirded out about it being November.

John, Will and I are currently out in the beautiful Inland Empire staying with our fantastic friends, Ryan and Kelly and their four kids, while John and Ryan work on a job. We've been here for about a week and a half. It's been interesting living out of a suitcase with a 2-3 week old baby but we've been having lots of fun and these guys are more than hospitable and accommodating. It's never been so easy to stay away from home! So thank you Kelly and family, for the room and the delicious dinners and not minding that I've been mostly laying around and reading and nursing the always-hungry baby.

So, needless to say, there have been no crafts going on around here besides the tiniest bit of knitting (this little fox) but lots of nursing the babe and reading and trying to sleep when Will is sleeping.

My friend Nellie sent me Twilight by Stephanie Meyer for my birthday last month and I didn't start reading it until last week. I had heard very mixed reviews about it so I was pretty unsure what to expect, but, after reading a few chapters I really got into it. I finished it in a day and a half and then had to venture to the Waldenbooks in the fabulous Hemet Valley Mall to get the two sequels -- which I then finished reading in a day each. Even though they're "Young Adult" books and the writing seemed a bit juvenile at first I ended up really liking them, obviously. And want more please. Who knew that I'd be a little bit obsessed with a book about vampires? Who am I?

Yesterday we took William on his first of many, many road trips. Since we're out here in the desert already, we decided to go to Joshua Tree National Park . It only took us an hour and a half to get out of town -- having to first stop at Walmart for a road atlas and some blank video tapes (while I nursed the baby in the back seat of the car), Walgreens for emergency diapers (I panicked when I realized I'd only packed 3 diapers. I'm still working on getting this whole packing for a newborn thing down), gas, changing William's diaper and clothes in the back seat of the car while in line for the car wash, Starbucks and McDonalds. William slept the entire drive, only waking up to eat once, and then again when we made him wake up to try to take pictures. He wasn't very happy about that. Oh yeah, and of course as soon as I went to eat dinner.

In true road-trip fashion our meals were unhealthy and weird. Breakfast: Egg McMuffin for John and a donut and tallnonfat4pumpnowater Chai Latte from Starbucks for me. Lunch: A $5 "Hot and Ready" pizza from Little Caesar's, eaten in the parking lot of Vons (who can resist the power of a sign twirler on the corner?) Dinner: Big Boy Original Hamburgers from Bob's Big Boy. Clearly, my post-baby diet plan was foiled once again.

Here's some pics for ya'll.

I'm desperately hoping November won't go as quickly by as October did. I'm so not ready. Not ready for birthdays this month, flying to Utah for Thanksgiving (though I am really looking forward to it), William turning a month old, Christmas, or deciding what the heck I'm going to do for employment. Time is going too fast!

Happy November anyway!