Maybe Kind of Flakey?

A list of miscellaneous thoughts. I promise to post something crafty soon.

1) Okay, so remember how I was training for a 5K. And was like, dudes, I am GOING to run a 5K. No. Matter. What. Don't let me flake out. I'm running it. Seriously. And then I got shin splints. And then I started my training over again but this time made sure to warm up and stretch really well before and after running.

Well, then I got shin splints again. Took a break. Started again trying to run differently along with lots of warming up and stretching. Got them again. So, I'm out. I've done a lot of research on the topic and found a lot of really great exercises to strengthen the shin muscles and blah blah blah. The thing is -- I don't like running. It's not something I have a passion for or a drive to do. It's not something that I want to do so much that I want to spend a lot of time specifically working on those exercises to just be able to run. Call me lazy, maybe. But, I'd rather just find something else to do.

2) Also, remember how I was going to have my etsy shop up by February? And then by July? And then, "any day now". Well, also not happening. I have a few things done, but I feel like it'd be pretty lame to open a shop for a whole 5 items. And it was stressing me out so much thinking about it constantly and feeling like a failure because I wasn't making the kind of progress I wanted to on it.

So, I'm just chillin' and am going to see what happens. I have no deadline any more. Truthfully, there are other things in my life right now that I need to focus on. Other things that I need to make a priority at the moment. I'll open the shop eventually, but I'm not going to make myself feel bad about it anymore.

3) This week the weather has finally cooled down! I'm SOOO happy. I can't even express my joy. It's actually pretty disturbing, and also not very balanced, but the weather actually has a great impact on my entire life. When it's hot I just feel like I don't care about anything. I'm unmotivated, uncreative, lazy, and don't care that I'm those things. Or don't care enough to actually do anything about it, anyway. When it's cool and overcast and winter-y I'm like, stoked on life and get a million things done. I just feel so much better. It's like backwards Seasonal Affective Disorder or something.

Every morning this week I've gotten up at 7am and gone walking, done some strength exercises, showered and dressed all before starting work at 8:30. It's been incredible -- cool and foggy and gray in the morning. I've been amazingly productive and motivated to make and meet goals. And I just feel so...right. Like, at peace. Maybe I'm silly, but it's how I feel. I'm crossing my fingers that the weather stays and continues to get more fall-ish. I need it.

P.S. By "cooler" I mean in the 80s. In the mornings when I go walking it's in the 60s. Doesn't sound all that cool, I know, but compared to last week when it was 85 by the time I got up in the morning...it's downright winter-y.

4) I just found out that there is another baby in our circle of friends that is on it's way. Yahoo! It seems like every time one baby is born, someone else gets pregnant. It's been non-stop babies for the past year. Fun! Who's going to be next??? :)

P.S. No, definitely not me, thanks.

Fixing A Hole

A peaceful place in Oregon. Land of my wildest dreams.

Hey kids. Here I am. For the past month we've been road-trippin'-it! We had a blast and I have tons of photos to share with you. Like, several posts worth. I may even crash all of blogspot but there are just too many fun things to show you.

After our road-trip we were only home for 3 days before heading back to UT for my brother Trevor's wedding. I also have many photos of that to show you. My husband has some mad photography skillz, I tell you. Can't wait to show you.

So we've been home for about a week now and I've spent the entire time trying to drag myself out of Post-Vacation Depression (PVD), a supreme lack of interest and motivation for anything, fatness, laziness and more sitting around feeling fat, lazy and unmotivated. I have read a lot of books in the past week though, which was a lot of fun.

Last night I finally started my running program back up. Again. From the beginning. About a month into the program I got seriously bad medial tibial stress syndrome ("shin splints" - I've been told that term is out-dated and doesn't describe what I had) and had to quit training. The plan was to rest for 2 weeks to see if it healed (which it did), but by the time 2 weeks had passed, we were leaving for our road-trip and blah blah blah. So, finally I'm back. And it has seriously helped make me feel a lot better mentally and physically -- even after just one day. So I'm excited to keep it up.

I only have 8 weeks until the Santa Monica 5K -- which is 5 weeks shy of finishing the 13 week program -- but I'm still going to do the 5K. My goal is just to get a better time this year than when I ran it in 2006. I can't wait!

So anyway, I have like 15 posts to share the past month with you. I missed all you peeps and for those of you with blogs, I have been reading them and loving every post but it was hard to comment using my iPhone. I can do better now. :)

Here we go!

I'm Doing It!

Hopefully I'll look this good someday

I said I was going to do it... and...I am! I've started running! I'm training to run a 5K in October. I just started last night and I was SO nervous. I don't know why I get so nervous and sick just thinking about it. I just have always hated running. And even though I've succesfully trained for and run a 5K in the past, thinking about doing it again made me feel nauseous.

But, I did the first day of training last night and it was totally easy. Or, easier than expected anyway. Especially since I tried to start this program back in December and I totally failed on the first day. Granted, I was only 2 months post-partum and probably 30 pounds heavier than I am now, so it was probably too soon. But now I'm doing it!! I hope I can keep up the motivation! Especially during vacations and house guests visiting through-out the next few months. Eek.

Hold me to it please!!

Some Things

Today was excellent. Slept in. Cleaned the floors. Folded some laundry. Did some sewing. Ate some Thai food.

Some things that are inspiring me right now (a bit random)...













And...I'm kind of afraid to mention this...because mentioning it kind of holds me accountable, which is a good thing but also I'm really lazy and also fickle and wishy-washy. But...I think I'm going to plan to run the Santa Monica 5K again this October.

I ran it in 2006 and it was incredible. I am NOT a runner. I have hated running my entire life. Running the mile in gym at school was my worst nightmare. And, speaking of nightmares, I have them regularly about running. And yet, somehow, from like June-October of 2006 I successfully trained for a 5K and actually ran it and finished. It was weird. Something I never thought I'd do in a million years. And...I think I need to do it again.

I still hate running. And it's going to be even harder to train this time as I'm 30 pounds heavier than I was last time. But...I think I need to??? I'll change my mind as soon as I try to run even a block. But, here it is in writing. Yikes.

All you insane people who have run marathons and half-marathons lately both inspire me and make me sick.



See, here's proof that I really did it. Nuts.